Real eyes, Realise, real lies!

Once upon a time in my school, I saw a miracle, i miracle to good to be true, a cute 5ft girl, medium black hair with brown ends, those beautiful black eyes whom I trusted the most, and those pink lips who gosh!.. i should make her mine right? Arey itni jaldi kis baat ki, patience 🤌... And dude what if this miracle came up to you and said, "hey u played so well", damn I decided that she is the one that day first sight love* (cringe 😬)... And dude then that miracle sent u a follow request and congratulates u on ur winning story! Gosh she's to sweet to.... Decided to be friends and dude what not, texting everyday like we got no work to do, making out time for each other, gossips, texts on life shit, late night texts and texts showing signs to each other... Texting her by hiding under my blanket on Christmas, oh goshh... And all this in the month of December, life started to feel worth it with her... But hey remember we are just 2 friends, and I respect that, our story takes a turn, we started showing signs, kinda flirty texts, oh goshh dude she was picturing us in a relationship, and seeing her imagine that I fell so hard for that.... So things started to get awkward in January, we showed signs and now it was really awkward, friendship later changed into a situationship, now it was getting more awkward, came to a point where we just couldn't talk like before, we both knew we had feelings for each other, but no one's ready to confess.. well damn it, pressure was increasing by her, i had no choice but to confess first, "i confessed to her"... Silly me i thought I will start a cute relationship with her but what I heard after i confessed, I just couldn't believe it... Her words oh gosh, those sweet words, now were so bitter, dude i couldn't believe that it was really her.. I couldn't believe it anymore, I gave up on her bas bahot hogaya.. u see I have no problem in getting rejected, but the amount of insults and harsh texts i just idk what happened... I still wonder where did I get so wrong.. and it's not just about my 5ft miracle, it's about everyone... I got in a trauma still don't know whether I have overcome it... I just lost trust on everyone, life didn't seem right now, it's not just about her, it's about people.. people now are to harsh, change so fast, idk dude it doesn't feel right anymore.. humans are to greedy.. I then got injured and isolated myself from everyone, those 10 days of isolation were terrible, couldn't even eat... Gosh how can people change so fast... I still can't believe it.. even the happiest couple end up divorcing eachother, even that bestfriend who ur making plans with talks behind ur back when ur not around, the closest people end up hurting u so bad, heck yea stop paying ur therapist for 2 days he would even leave u.... I just can't face all this, every time I see someone I just get so scared.... i use to trust their eyes, words never seem right, now i couldn't even trust their eyes.... Among so much darkness and fear of facing people, I just want a person a light to my darkness in my life, whom I could trust the fullest, hug them for no reason and smile! My story doesn't end over here...